Every time the end of the year rolls around I usually get this feeling of looming doubt. ‘Did I accomplish my goals for the year??’ is usually a re-occurring thought as I feel guilty for not fully reaching XYZ goal. When I took a look at the date the other day I was so shocked that those dreaded judgments were not in my head.
In fact, I was feeling joyful!
This realization that I have finally found satisfaction in the journey of life is huge. That feeling of satisfaction with imperfection is my biggest learning experience of the year. I’m enjoying my favorite dark chocolate every night, I’m pouring my energy into creating more unique content, I’m sharing myself more openly through IG Lives, and in general feel the most comfortable in my skin then I ever have.
Do I have a million followers yet?
Not even close.
But what I do have is so much richer than any number.
I have met some of the most beautiful loyal friends through @mscoffeeandcream that enrich my life so deeply and I am so grateful to them! I have so much love and amazing people in my life and have excellent health. I live in California in one of the most beautiful places in the world. And Santa even came early this year – I just got featured next to some of the most iconic women in fashion on Gadriana.es
I am on Cloud 9 because I have learned to focus on the small joys that truly make me satisfied rather than huge milestones in a galaxy far far away. This year I have started making great strides in things I always wanted to work on but never thought I could be. I finally learned how to be assertive while still being nice (I’m notorious for being too nice and letting others steamroll me while I fester with anger in my mind). I learned to listen to my mind and body and slow down. I don’t beat myself up if I don’t get a chance to run that day or don’t post on Instagram that morning.
And I’m truly savoring the small joys that make me feel like a Goddess. When I slipped this Sandrine dress on by my favorite San Francisco designer Vanessa Lynne, I felt immediately that my newfound sense of self and joy was translated onto my body. It is such a great feeling when you find a dress that fits you like a glove and gives you that extra boost of confidence, sophistication, and verve. I am thrilled to have found to perfectly cut dress that makes me feel like an Empress (especially because I am attending so many holiday parties this week and then about to jet off to India to impress my in laws).
I hope you all have a fabulous holiday season and follow your bliss! I also hope you will join me for a lot of fun travel vlogs and exciting projects as I head off to Bangalore in a couple of days!
Lots of Love,